lost soul

So Happy!!!

2009-08-06T02:54:00.003+08:00

later in the noon i'll be taking my 1st plane ride and is going to Redang!! not only that, i'll be going there to get my diving certificate!! wahahaha!!!! and not only all this... Miss Piggy, coming too!!! yeah!!!! hahahaha!! i'm so happy!!! heehee!! i'm now at Miss Piggy house!!! Staying over and we both playing facebook games and blogging and chit chatting with each other. HAHAHAHA!!

Cya all!!! BYEZ!!!

Joy?? Sorrow??

2009-07-13T20:38:00.002+08:00

You be thinking why there's ?? for my title Joy?? Sorrow??

I'm asking myself too n what i've find out n got is...

Joy should LIVE ON n LINGER FOREVER.
- But it will never live on with "ONE" n will never stay..
- It last for a very short period of time n disappear or fade away.

Sorrow should DIES n FADE OFF.
- But it will never die n fade off.
- It will clinch on tightly n never let go on "ONE" n stay there forever like a big ugly scar.

Just some random statement at the bottom.

(Stop living in denial..)

Good vs Bad..

2009-07-13T20:04:00.002+08:00

In fantasy, in movie, in game n story..

the Good - stand strong, live on n survive..

the Bad - deteriorate, hide away n die..

Why? Cos IS NOT REALITY..

It's the opposite way in Reality..

the Good - deteriorate, try surviving, in the end still die off..

the Bad - stand strong, live on, killing others(killing the Good n the Bad) n hunger for more(greed, lust, sloth, envy, gluttony, pride n vainity)

Why?

How can we stop all this?..

drifted.. why?...

2009-06-15T20:35:00.002+08:00

feels like a drifting wood...

seen n not seen...
wanted n not wanted...
needed n thrown away...
acknowledged n not acknowledged...
many good things done n not appreciated...
being one self of who i am n not being accepted...

am i really a drifting wood?..
when other see the drifting wood n try to use it when they need it...
thrown away when done using it...

why?...

why others r being seen n appreciated for whatever great, good, bad n/or ugly things they do?...

why?...

am i asking too much?...

i am just being who i am...
changing myself to a better person, be a gentleman n/or being a humble one...

if is really meant to be like tis..
i'll jus really be a drfting wood, accept it n drift off to a far away place...
lock all my emotions, characters n attitudes away...

the JERRY, that once being seen...
will be locked away...
never be seen again...

why?...

been awhile...

2009-04-22T16:23:00.002+08:00

hi lost soul.. is been awhile i write on you.. hope that you are not lonely.. haha.. cos i am.. working rite now.. weaTHER damn hot.. is killing me!!.. ok, i'll catch up wit u again.. miss u lost soul.. take care k.. =)

2009-03-25T16:57:00.002+08:00

Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2008.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.
Last but not the least:
40.. Please Forward this to everyone you care about

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2009-03-23T21:10:00.002+08:00

i'm speechless. . . .

craps

2009-03-04T17:24:00.001+08:00

Mother, Teach Your Child Right A little girl was crying and the mother asked what was wrong? The little girl said, "Last night I couldn't sleep. When I got up to get a glass of water I went by your room and the door was open. Daddy was on top of you and I thought he was hurting you." The mother put her arm around the little girl and said, "It's all right honey. Daddy wasn't hurting me. That's how we get babies." The next morning the little girl was crying again. The mother asked what was wrong. The little girl said, "Last night I couldn't sleep again and when I went past your room again part of daddy was in your mouth." The mother put her arm around the little girl and said, "It's all right honey. That's how you get jewelry."

what a saturday..

2009-03-01T05:23:00.003+08:00

when down to my restaurant to pick up the key.. cause i'll be doing opening.. then meet up my friends and went to st james's boiler.. being force to drink even not my birthday(not really lah, i, myself also want to drink.. hahaha).. hell man.. i just reach home.. lots of things going and running thru my mind... i was happy and moody at the same time.. haiz.. just wash up and going to zzz now.. nights everyone..

stressed??..

2009-02-26T02:57:00.003+08:00

just finish half of my paper work.. damn tired..

had a bad cut on my hand.. clumsy me.. haiz.. thanks pig for applying ointment for me.

still struggling with my break up..

still thinking what the reason for breaking up..

been thinking alot bout it.. still cant figure out..

what is the reason/s.. anyone of you know, please tell me..

is really killing me..

am i bad?..

have i done something wrong?..

what have i done to deserve this?..

i'm frigging pissed..

be freaking out soon..

LOVE IS FULL OF BULL SHIT!!..

still trying hard..

2009-02-25T02:07:00.002+08:00

still try hard to get to move on.. but is not easy.. is killing me.. till now i just really want to know the reasons why we have to br separated.. can't sleep every night.. so have to drink to make myself knock out, if not is to stay awake till very late till i fell sleepy then i'm able to sleep.. i really hate myself.. haiz.. really just want to leave this world.. really damn tired of all this things..
God please help me.. i'll go insane!!... Argh!!.. had mood swing just now in the noon.. don't have any mood to talk, have fun or laugh.. getting worse.. thinking real hard to find ways to let it out.. but is not working..

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Argh!!!

only you..

2009-02-20T03:29:00.002+08:00

I thought I'd write it in a letter

As I'm too shy to say it to you

I guess I should've known better

But I don't know what else to do

I'm on my way

No turning back

So take me in your arms

And then we'll be right on track

I write these words to you

To tell you just what you mean to me

I hope you like these lines

Cause I love you even more then yesterday

And all I say to you is true

Will you leave time to me

I'll wait and see

Cause all I need is you

Only you

You helped me through the stormiest weather

Your what I need to guide me through

Without you nothing else matters

Your something I look forward to

You make my day

No holding back

So take me in your arms

And then we'll be right on track

I write these words to you

To tell you just what you mean to me

I hope you like these lines

Cause I love you even more then yesterday

And all I say to you is true

Will you leave time to me

I'll wait and see

Cause all I need is you

Only you

All I say to you is true

Because to me there is

Only you

losst..

2009-02-20T02:41:00.004+08:00

i'm really lost..

working hard to be strong.. just can't..

i'm really really lost..

the people that i see and talk at work..

not sure if we all are really friends..

some says that we are friends but i'm not sure bout it..

i really don't know who to believe and to trust..

will you really LOVE a person alot and the next moment or day you say you HATE the person and says you regret knowing him/her?...

the person never do anything wrong and if he/she did, please let he/she know what went wrong..

is really killing the person's HEART and SOUL real badly..

i really want you..

2009-02-20T02:29:00.003+08:00

Many prophets preach on bended knee

Many clerics wasted wine

Through those bloody sheets

On those cobbled streets

I have wasted time

Are there silver shores on paradise?

Can I come in from the cold?

I killed a man in a far away land

My enemy untold

I really want you to really want me

But I really don't know if you can do that

I know you want to know what's right

But I know it's so hard for you to do that

And time's running out as often it does

And often dictates that you can't do that

If fate can't break this feeling inside

That's burning up through my veins

I really want you

I really want you now

No matter what I say or do

The message isn't getting through

And you're listening to the sound

Of my breaking heart

I really want you

Is a poor man rich in solitude?

Or when mother earth complain

Did the beggar pray for a sunny day but

Lady luck for rain

They say a million people bow and scream

To an effigy of gold

As so life begin

And the shit we're in

And history unfold

I really want you to really want me

But I really don't know if you can do that

I know you want to know what's right

But I know it's so hard for you to do that

And time's running out as often it does

And often dictates that you can't do that

If fate can't break this feeling inside

That's burning up through my veins

I really want you

No matter what I say or do

The message isn't getting through

And you're listening to the sound

Of my breaking heart

Goodbye My Love

2009-02-13T16:24:00.003+08:00

Did I disappoint you or let you down?

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,

Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.

Took your soul out into the night.

It may be over but it won't stop there,

I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.

You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that I knew when,

My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your head.

Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

I know you well, I know your smell.

I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.

I'd be the father of your child.

I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.

We've had our doubts but now we're fine,

And I love you, I swear that's true.

I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.

In mine when I'm asleep.

And I will bear my soul in time,

When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Amore

2009-02-10T14:23:00.003+08:00

Eri il mio sole.

Perche mi hai lasciata?

La luna non puo splende, e senza il sole.

Amore mio, torna da me.

yesterday

2009-02-08T13:53:00.003+08:00

Went rock climbing yesterday, got to know 3 new friends, Joey, LL and JK. I poor thing, have to belay all 3 of them. haha. is ok. I'm happy to see them having fun.

Taught them the skills on climbing, till i almost lose my wonderful voice. haha.. They are fast learners. erm.. Don't know what else to say..

After climbing, send them to Khatib station and i went home to wash up and get ready to leave house with my parents to go my granny's place to have dinner.

Guess that's all.. Not sure what else to add in.. haha! Take care to all!!

2009-02-01T13:18:00.004+08:00

Went night cycling on friday night.

Total moodless..

Started from 12am at East Coast.
Went on to katong,
to siglap,
to singpang bedok,
to Singapore Expo,
to Changi Flyway,
to Changi Ferry Terminal,
Changi Village
n lastly back to east coast in the morning 7 plus to return the bike..

My butt and thighs are aching..
But is not as Painful as what i'm feeling in my Heart...

2009-02-01T13:15:00.002+08:00

Continued..

2009-01-26T18:00:00.000+08:00

Is 2am in the morning now..
Just posted a post earlier on..
I'm really physically damn tired..
Even right now..
What a Year..
Why have to be me..

I think i should stop for now..
I'll be saying the same again..
Kudos..

What a "GREAT" Happy "COW' Year to start..

2009-01-26T17:57:00.001+08:00

Don't know what to say..
I've been thinking alot for the past few days..
Feeling very empty..
Lost The One I love and lost my job a couple of weeks back..
Everything just went screwed up..
Trying real hard to just keep myself alive everyday.
Lots of thing going through my mind..

Been praying very hard for mental, physical and emotional strength..
Do pray for me..

Just now had reunion dinner with my family..
Don't have the spirit and mood when having dinner, even till now..
Haiz..
Running from reality.. Damn myself..

If i do have the courage, i want to kill myself and my life..
How i wish i can just die in my sleep..

Fat Ass, call me earlier on to ask bout monster hunter game.
Lollipop called to ask how am i.
Called Pig and talk for a short while..

Meaningless, life damn meaningless..
The feeling is like losing my Soul..
Having a body, but is empty inside..
My Heart wouldn't listen and follow what my Mouth says and causing my Mind haywire..
DAMN IT!!... Really freaking, frigging damn it..
Been burning my lungs away seen broken up..
Burn like crazy, like burning dead bodies..

Always wanted to have a proper, stable and loving relationship..
Always tried keeping it as whole, but always fall apart..
Hurts alot..
Everytime it fall apart, i keep saying not to have anymore..

Is rather late now..
Gonna go sleep..

LOST SOUL Wishes Everyone A Happy Chinese New Year and A Good Year Ahead For All..

*P.S Count me out of it..

Need Advises..

2009-01-26T02:38:00.000+08:00

After reading my posts, please leave comments of advise or opinion..
Thanks..

Now is 2:40am..

endure

2009-01-19T16:08:00.000+08:00

stayed over at my cousin's place.. today stil at his place.. my mind is all messed up.. my heart is achin badly.. i love her alot.. i've to endure n i will.. i dunno watelse to say..

!!!!!(bleeding love and back to square one)!!!!!

2009-01-18T14:48:00.002+08:00

went out yesterday.. fetch my mum from far east n went to bukit merah's ntuc to buy groceries. ma bought so many things.. =( make me carry home.. lucky have car!! i drove home after tat to drop the stuffs at home n den went to visit my Ah Po n have dinner tgt.

here comes the emo part..

met up wit Mack last nite to chat til tis mornin 7 plus n cab back tgt... the whole nite i talked bout my love for tis gal..(mack knoe who she is) our relationship may not be long.. (hearin from mack tat she really love me too..) prove tat our love for each other is strong....

but WE BROKE UP!!!! U ask me WHY? i not every sure..

is our age.. is the cos of tis prob to cos tis break up.. i'm quite sure bout it.. n her parent.. (is my age tat cos the parents worried)..

i'm not a bad person nor am i a hooligan.. why i get tis all the time... why God.. pls tel me why...

she's 17 n i'm 26.. we r 9 yrs diff in age.. people out ther tat i know, one is 9rs diff n married happily n the other is 12YRS!! 12YRS LEH!!!! tat's my fren's parent, also happily married tgt..

i dunno wat else to say.. u love someone n u get hurt.. like people says..

Bleeding Love...

back to square one

2009-01-18T14:48:00.000+08:00

went out yesterday.. fetch my mum from far east

first day of blog!

2008-12-01T15:06:00.000+08:00

FIRST posting! :D
I'm sick and my friend is here to take care me! :D
*VERY VERY VERY nice friend [but she is dumbdumb x.x]

I say I like her! :D
And she says she like me! :D
I only know her for 2weeks and she also know me for 2weeks. :P
Hope she don't mind our age gap.

My dog name is GiGi!^^