stressed??..

just finish half of my paper work.. damn tired..

had a bad cut on my hand.. clumsy me.. haiz.. thanks pig for applying ointment for me.

still struggling with my break up..

still thinking what the reason for breaking up..

been thinking alot bout it.. still cant figure out..

what is the reason/s.. anyone of you know, please tell me..

is really killing me..

am i bad?..

have i done something wrong?..

what have i done to deserve this?..

i'm frigging pissed..

be freaking out soon..

LOVE IS FULL OF BULL SHIT!!..

still trying hard..

still try hard to get to move on.. but is not easy.. is killing me.. till now i just really want to know the reasons why we have to br separated.. can't sleep every night.. so have to drink to make myself knock out, if not is to stay awake till very late till i fell sleepy then i'm able to sleep.. i really hate myself.. haiz.. really just want to leave this world.. really damn tired of all this things..
God please help me.. i'll go insane!!... Argh!!.. had mood swing just now in the noon.. don't have any mood to talk, have fun or laugh.. getting worse.. thinking real hard to find ways to let it out.. but is not working..

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Argh!!!

only you..

I thought I'd write it in a letter

As I'm too shy to say it to you

I guess I should've known better

But I don't know what else to do

I'm on my way

No turning back

So take me in your arms

And then we'll be right on track

I write these words to you

To tell you just what you mean to me

I hope you like these lines

Cause I love you even more then yesterday

And all I say to you is true

Will you leave time to me

I'll wait and see

Cause all I need is you

Only you

You helped me through the stormiest weather

Your what I need to guide me through

Without you nothing else matters

Your something I look forward to

You make my day

No holding back

So take me in your arms

And then we'll be right on track

I write these words to you

To tell you just what you mean to me

I hope you like these lines

Cause I love you even more then yesterday

And all I say to you is true

Will you leave time to me

I'll wait and see

Cause all I need is you

Only you

All I say to you is true

Because to me there is

Only you

losst..

i'm really lost..

working hard to be strong.. just can't..

i'm really really lost..

the people that i see and talk at work..

not sure if we all are really friends..

some says that we are friends but i'm not sure bout it..

i really don't know who to believe and to trust..

will you really LOVE a person alot and the next moment or day you say you HATE the person and says you regret knowing him/her?...

the person never do anything wrong and if he/she did, please let he/she know what went wrong..

is really killing the person's HEART and SOUL real badly..

i really want you..

Many prophets preach on bended knee

Many clerics wasted wine

Through those bloody sheets

On those cobbled streets

I have wasted time

Are there silver shores on paradise?

Can I come in from the cold?

I killed a man in a far away land

My enemy untold

I really want you to really want me

But I really don't know if you can do that

I know you want to know what's right

But I know it's so hard for you to do that

And time's running out as often it does

And often dictates that you can't do that

If fate can't break this feeling inside

That's burning up through my veins

I really want you

I really want you

I really want you now

No matter what I say or do

The message isn't getting through

And you're listening to the sound

Of my breaking heart

I really want you

I really want you

Is a poor man rich in solitude?

Or when mother earth complain

Did the beggar pray for a sunny day but

Lady luck for rain

They say a million people bow and scream

To an effigy of gold

As so life begin

And the shit we're in

And history unfold

I really want you to really want me

But I really don't know if you can do that

I know you want to know what's right

But I know it's so hard for you to do that

And time's running out as often it does

And often dictates that you can't do that

If fate can't break this feeling inside

That's burning up through my veins

I really want you

I really want you

I really want you

No matter what I say or do

The message isn't getting through

And you're listening to the sound

Of my breaking heart

Goodbye My Love

Did I disappoint you or let you down?

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,

Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.

Took your soul out into the night.

It may be over but it won't stop there,

I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.

You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that I knew when,

My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your head.

Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

I know you well, I know your smell.

I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.

I'd be the father of your child.

I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.

We've had our doubts but now we're fine,

And I love you, I swear that's true.

I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.

In mine when I'm asleep.

And I will bear my soul in time,

When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Amore

Eri il mio sole.

Perche mi hai lasciata?

La luna non puo splende, e senza il sole.

Amore mio, torna da me.

yesterday

Went rock climbing yesterday, got to know 3 new friends, Joey, LL and JK. I poor thing, have to belay all 3 of them. haha. is ok. I'm happy to see them having fun.

Taught them the skills on climbing, till i almost lose my wonderful voice. haha.. They are fast learners. erm.. Don't know what else to say..

After climbing, send them to Khatib station and i went home to wash up and get ready to leave house with my parents to go my granny's place to have dinner.

Guess that's all.. Not sure what else to add in.. haha! Take care to all!!

Went night cycling on friday night.

Total moodless..

Started from 12am at East Coast.
Went on to katong,
to siglap,
to singpang bedok,
to Singapore Expo,
to Changi Flyway,
to Changi Ferry Terminal,
Changi Village
n lastly back to east coast in the morning 7 plus to return the bike..

My butt and thighs are aching..
But is not as Painful as what i'm feeling in my Heart...