Continued..

Is 2am in the morning now..
Just posted a post earlier on..
I'm really physically damn tired..
Even right now..
What a Year..
Why have to be me..

I think i should stop for now..
I'll be saying the same again..
Kudos..

What a "GREAT" Happy "COW' Year to start..

Don't know what to say..
I've been thinking alot for the past few days..
Feeling very empty..
Lost The One I love and lost my job a couple of weeks back..
Everything just went screwed up..
Trying real hard to just keep myself alive everyday.
Lots of thing going through my mind..

Been praying very hard for mental, physical and emotional strength..
Do pray for me..

Just now had reunion dinner with my family..
Don't have the spirit and mood when having dinner, even till now..
Haiz..
Running from reality.. Damn myself..

If i do have the courage, i want to kill myself and my life..
How i wish i can just die in my sleep..

Fat Ass, call me earlier on to ask bout monster hunter game.
Lollipop called to ask how am i.
Called Pig and talk for a short while..

Meaningless, life damn meaningless..
The feeling is like losing my Soul..
Having a body, but is empty inside..
My Heart wouldn't listen and follow what my Mouth says and causing my Mind haywire..
DAMN IT!!... Really freaking, frigging damn it..
Been burning my lungs away seen broken up..
Burn like crazy, like burning dead bodies..

Always wanted to have a proper, stable and loving relationship..
Always tried keeping it as whole, but always fall apart..
Hurts alot..
Everytime it fall apart, i keep saying not to have anymore..

Is rather late now..
Gonna go sleep..

LOST SOUL Wishes Everyone A Happy Chinese New Year and A Good Year Ahead For All..


*P.S Count me out of it..

Need Advises..

After reading my posts, please leave comments of advise or opinion..
Thanks..

Now is 2:40am..

endure

stayed over at my cousin's place.. today stil at his place.. my mind is all messed up.. my heart is achin badly.. i love her alot.. i've to endure n i will.. i dunno watelse to say..

!!!!!(bleeding love and back to square one)!!!!!

went out yesterday.. fetch my mum from far east n went to bukit merah's ntuc to buy groceries. ma bought so many things.. =( make me carry home.. lucky have car!! i drove home after tat to drop the stuffs at home n den went to visit my Ah Po n have dinner tgt.

here comes the emo part..

met up wit Mack last nite to chat til tis mornin 7 plus n cab back tgt... the whole nite i talked bout my love for tis gal..(mack knoe who she is) our relationship may not be long.. (hearin from mack tat she really love me too..) prove tat our love for each other is strong....

but WE BROKE UP!!!! U ask me WHY? i not every sure..

is our age.. is the cos of tis prob to cos tis break up.. i'm quite sure bout it.. n her parent.. (is my age tat cos the parents worried)..

i'm not a bad person nor am i a hooligan.. why i get tis all the time... why God.. pls tel me why...

she's 17 n i'm 26.. we r 9 yrs diff in age.. people out ther tat i know, one is 9rs diff n married happily n the other is 12YRS!! 12YRS LEH!!!! tat's my fren's parent, also happily married tgt..

i dunno wat else to say.. u love someone n u get hurt.. like people says..


Bleeding Love...

back to square one

went out yesterday.. fetch my mum from far east